Chaos Theory.....

Ah! The eternal battle between order and chaos
being played out since the dawn of origin
Or is it all a mere play in the realm of Oneiros
ensnaring worlds and their hordes in the cult of min

Marvel and rejoice in the runes of bedlam
for order sans chaos and chaos sans order
reeks of ennui and a verse unlike gotham
trading the bats and the clown in barter

Aren't all religions mere sensory allegories
with asuras and devas just amulets worn
recall this! lest you provoke the furies
for hell has no fury like the knowledge you scorn

Social pendulum swinging away for eternity
Was the verse born out of chaos ? Or order 'fore chaos ?
When does this all end in the arms of Nirrti ?
Now,I melt away in the pasithea's bossom and cradle of hypnos.


This really needs a lot of fixing and I am too tired to finish this...
And you really need to look deep into pop culture and ancient history
to understand this "POEM". There are references to indian folklore,
egyptian folklore, greek folklore and of course, batman here.

Challenges and Obstacles!!!

To a certain extent, challenges exert and keep me "happy".
They kinda give me a purpose, to which my entire being is devoted
to and wishes to accomplish. Otherwise, ennui and aimless existence
seem to plague me. But yet there have been times I have been driven
by a single minded purpose, zeal and a passion. I feel very alive then.
It is almost as if every nerve, fiber of my body, mind and soul ( I think I
did sell it to you know who :-) ) is alive and enveloped by a all consuming
desire to accomplish what i had in mind.

Challenges and Obstacles, in a sense they define us. Mankind itself
has grown from strength to strength through challenges and adversity.

The Enemy

I have met the enemy and he is me!

This is a corruption of Commodore Perry famous quote.

Anime!!!

I was introduced to the world of Animes by my roomies.
This is a very amazing world indeed. Its almost as if some of them
were made for me. A wonderful medley of music, philosophical
storylines, cultural references in a cartoonish medium. Beaut!

Some recommendations:

1. Cowboy Bepop ( See the series episodes and then the movie. the movie should be seen after
episode 17 and then remaining episodes should be watched.)
2. Samurai Champaloo ( Bepop is definitely better than this imho. But this is cool too...)

Art of Writing

I gotta master the art of writing.
So far, I figure that I am really crappy.

Why is mediocrity such an curse for me ?

My writing is so raw.

Any suggestions, readers ?

p.s: Readers, if you are really reading my blog and wasting your time,
that means you are the one who has attained nirvana.
If not, it means you have something wrong in your brainworks!.
It means you are doomed along with me in an endless repetitive
mind warping time cycle. Did you even understand what I just wrote ?
I sure as hell did not.

Cry of your soul...

Have you listened to the cry of your soul ?
I don't mean a battle cry or cry of anguish. But the cry of a wanderer
in eternal search of something , something you can never begin to
define. It is a parallel activity going on in your subconsciousness,
whilst you are working on my daily activities, knowing that they
are trivial.

What is purpose then ? Is it the act of procreation, producing
individual beings for the sole purpose of experiencing life,
emotions, turmoils in order for a wholesome,larger sentient
being to savor them ?
(Sounds like Vishishta Advaitam to me! funny!)

Or Do we at the end of continuous birth-life-death lifecycle ( Yes!,
I do believe in reincarnation because in my last birth I was ??????.)
become the new gods and demons responsible for the creation of a
new multiverse ( I see no reason why there has to be only universe
with only set of possibilities of occurences. I like the idea of a
multiverse where for each action I did take or did not take,
I am there in another universe where I took an alternate action.).


Who do I seek ? What do I seek ? Why do I seek ? Eternal questions
for everyone. Yet ever unanswered , ever disdained as decadent,
ever relegated to the disused corners of the vast corridors of human mind.

Morality, emotions, thoughts- What are they then ? Are they mere
feeble artificial creations in order to structure our existence and
safeguard civilization ? After all, what's right in one country is
terribly immoral in another ? (OMG, this is so Mr.Anderson and
Neo! )

What is the balance ? Who do we seek it ?

How does one seek redemption ? How does one fight and win that
which eats at the very core of his soul ? When does identity emerge
as a consciousness ? When does good and bad emerge ? And what the
heck am I whining about ?

Dumas!! Dumas!!- Edmond Dantes, Athos, Pothos, Aramis and D'Artagnan

What would the world do without Dumas ? I still reminiscence of the days I and my brother watched Count of Monte Cristo and Three Musketeers cartoons on DD (TV Channel in India).
I did read both the the Musketeer series including The Three Musketeers, Twenty Years later,
Man in the Iron Mask and the Count of Monte Cristo.


Cries of "Jackapo!Jackapo! Where are you, my man ? " , "Chateau D'If", " All for One , One for All"," Athos, Pothos,Aramis and D'Artagnan".... It's almost as if yesterday.

I saw a japanese anime adaptation of Count of Monte Cristo- Gankutsuou, which was cool at the beginning and became totally gay later on. I then went to Barnes and Noble and bought the complete works of Dumas.. I have started reading Count of Monte Cristo and listening to some music (mixing a medley of Bach, Beethoven , Mozart, Carpenters! and Savage Garden).

How should I describe the experience ? Not Ecstatic, Not Dream Like.
Simply put - Just perfect and fulfilling.

May Dumas live for eternity.
I hear a cry : "En Garde!" and I hear swords clashing...

Gotta go. Dantes would be very peeved at me if I delay reading his moment of revenge. He did wait for quite some years, after all.